Was a boring night.. so far

So its almost 4:30 am and i'm sitting here listening to the hampster dance lmao i know i know im a loser, but what can i say? well anyways yesterday all day all i did was hang out with kelsey, we played video games, i really miss doing that because it reminds me of when i used to play them with my step dad. Then we went swimming in her pool for about an hour and a half that was fun, we got some funny ass pictures but they are on her camera im gonna have to get those later on.. Then a storm rolled in and we came down to my house and took pictures of us modeling, being preppy yet gangster at the same time, i dunno but they are pretty good i guess, and im still in them clothes haha.. So my brother stephen is a freakin' jerk and was like sure u can use my bed till i move out of krystals so i spend all that time switching bed come to find out he gets back with fucking jessica or something and just takes the bed back.. wtf oh well i dont plan on living here much longer, im seriously so close to moving back in with my mom.. but i just have more freedom here then i would at my moms. plus all my friends live over here, but my friends are the only reason im staying here for so long, and my freedom, i hate living with my brothers and my dad. So from now on im going to try to not be home as much as possible im seriously just gonna shower here, change, sleep, eat, then leave.. Im not staying here if i dont have to. Thats how much i dislike living here. I dunno i guess just lately all three of them have been getting on my nerves extremly bad. so now im sitting here listening to music and waiting for kenny to return from away because i miss talking to him. lol so kelsey was here till 1 tonight and she was like i cant believe u r making me go home i was like well my dad has to work, and hes a jerk and i dont feel like even hearing him talk.. so yeah i felt bad, and i should have stayed the night there, i really dont know why i didnt.. Matt called me while me and kelsey were taking pictures. but i think my phone lost service so we didnt talk long.. He's pretty cool.

Gosh i'm bored and for some reason my baby brother is on my mind, and i cannot get him off it seriously.. :( I don't know why this happens. I mean i was young when he died, but i remember it like it was yesterday and i have major flashbacks, i really do miss him. You wouldn't ever think "Oh my house wont catch on fire" until it does. Yes for those of u who didnt know, my baby brother died back in 98 when he was almost 4 years old in a house fire.. But i just look at the bright side and now i have kayleigh, she fills that hole in my heart.

So tomorrow im going to a concert with kelsey at an internet cafe in canton to watch my neighbor kenneth play in his band, they are really going far. I'm actually quite excited to be able to see them play. I've never even heard their music, but i hear its awesome. I plan on waking up tomorrow around 2 then being gone all day with kelsey and not coming home till like at least 10. if not later.

There is just so much on my mind and for some reason i'm just not letting it out. I mean seriously im not even telling kelsey whats all on my mind, and i tell that girl everything. I truely love her, no matter what anyone thinks about our age difference, she is by far the best friend someone could ever ask for. i love you kel. well now that im just rambling on, and ur obviously still reading lol i'm going to stop boring you. and go listen to more music..
<3 Felicia